March 18th 2009 proved to me that I should never say "I can't" or "I give up"

today I overcame two fears
and tomorrow I'd hopefully overcome another
In the novel the Bell Jar, the narrator said at one instance, that you could get away with almost anything if you are confident enough. She was describing the way a poet dressed and ate at a very fancy hotel in the most confident manner, which made him not look odd.
I think that's the key
confidence
and it's hard because it's something I totally lack

but I still won't say "I can't"

I always fell in love with illusions
and ideas of people
If I fall in love with him
it would be the first time
I fall in love with a real person

scary